Friday night my computer decided that it no longer liked it's hard drive. It in fact hated it's hard drive so much that it refused to boot at all. I ended up putting the hard drive in a portable case and yanking all my stuff off and putting it temporarily onto Chichiri. (thank god I still have that old desk top) I proceeded to spend all Sunday trying to reformat the hard drive, only for it to decide it's life goal was really just to be a glorified paper weight.
Late sunday night as I was looking on New Egg Jon called me back to help and told me that if my hard drive was 2.5" any hard drive I bought would fit. So I bought a nice, shiny hard drive off new egg and anxiously awaited it's arrival.
It arrived late this afternoon and I immediately went to install it. Jon was wrong. My laptop took an IED 2.5" hard drive, and no one makes those anymore. So I had a hard drive that is not actually useful.
I looked around Best Buy for a bit, then decided I really just needed to answer my need for a new computer. Definitely not the wisest course of action, but I'm thrilled with the end result.

I'm currently typing on my new laptop which for the moment has been nick-named Monster for it's sheer size. It's 17.3", so big that Best Buy didn't actually sell a case big enough to hold it. I have to work on that part still. It is very shiny and has all kinds of usefulness that I love. Huge hard drive, tones of RAM, awesome video card, microphone and camera, and it's really just huge and I love it.
I laughed out loud when I opened it because it has a sub-woofer on the bottom.

Anyway, so now I have Yuki, my poor little laptop with no hard drive. It still works fine otherwise so I think I might try and sell it after I try and return the useless hard drive I have.

Anyway, I'm going to bed as I have work in the morning, and this computer is setting me back for a while. But I love it anyway.

I'm feeling a little better than yesterday, thank goodness.
For those that didn't hear, I've been taking Ambien to help me get to sleep at night, and I recently started using one of those little AM/PM pill cases so I remember to take all my different meds. Yesterday I accidentally took my PM meds at 8am when I got to work, which meant I took Ambien yesterday morning, as well as the night before. I felt pretty damn awful the whole day, and it just got worse as the day progressed.
Today I'm less nauseous and my headache is less intense, which is good.

Have I mentioned how awesome it is that I finally learned to swallow pills? I figured out how about two months ago, and my life is so much easier now.

Anyway, time for some homework.

So I'm going to cut this for LJ for lots of personal stuff that people may not want to read.
This is more for me than anyone else anyway, as I just want a mental record of what I'm going through so that I have a reminder that this isn't necessarily me just being a lazy ass.

( The chronicle of Jessica's... body issues? Sure. )

So I had a strange moment today.

One of the girls at work's brother recently had a baby.
I heard more in detail today, such as his girlfriend/wife (I don't actually know) is named Sandra. And that they live in Longmont.
Hearing all of this made me think about the fact that two months ago I had met up with my old friend Sandra, who lives somewhere down there in one of those "L" cities, and so I turned to Erica and I asked her what her brother's name was.
We both had this moment where we were sure that maybe I knew her brother and his significant other, but alas, his name was Chris.

So it just makes me wonder now: How's the baby coming chica?

PS: I can't actually figure out how to write a note on Facebook, so I'm posting here since I know it'll cross post.

PPS: My body needs to stop telling me I want a baby. Because I really don't.

Actually, rather than end the post I'll actually talk a little bit about what's been going on with me.
I was trying to find a new job for a little while, but I've more or less decided I need to stick it out at my current job since they are pretty good to me and I need the insurance for a bit longer.
I've been off the depression meds for... a while... since sometime in May, can't remember when I stopped now. I've more or less decided that depression is not my problem, my problem is something about my sleeping pattern/ability.
I frequently wake up in the middle of the night, sometimes as often as 5 or six times. My doctor doesn't think it's sleep apnea but I'm supposed to have a sleep study done anyway to figure out what's wrong.
The problem is that I can't afford a sleep study, even with my insurance. I'm still trying to pay a dental bill from April that's almost $300, and my insurance says that the sleep study will cost me about $400 out of pocket up front.
So yeah... still trying to work that one out.

And otherwise... not much has changed. Yeah.

So I started playing Persona 3: FES in Japanese today.

It is so very a completely different game from Persona 4. Which makes sense, I suppose. I just wasn't exactly prepared for how different it is. Especially the general feel of what's going on. It's a lot darker and less... happy? than P4.

And certain character drive me up a wall already. In fact, I really only like two of the characters so far, and one of those I can't stand to hear him speak because his voice actor is Toriumi Kousuke.
In all honesty I do like Junpei. I think he's entertaining, and dragging him all around town instead of going to see Akihiko was fun.
Speaking on Akihiko... gah!!!! I want to beat him upside the head with sticks!! He is way to eager about the whole damn situation!!!
Yukari I actually really like, I think she's cute and endearing. And I like that she and the main character have this whole... common ground thing going on.
Mitsuru... is not really my type of character. I think I miss Rise. Maybe even Teddie. At least they both have a sense of humor.
And the richijou? He's just kind of creepy. And so's the weird dead (I assume) kid that made me sign the contract.

So yeah. Off to an interesting start with the game, not really sure how I feel about it yet other than I find the concept to be rather interesting.
The more I play though the more I kind of want to play the English release because while I think I understand most of what's going on I think I'm missing some of the controls and such.
Are you even allowed to manually control your party like you are in P4?

Anyway... I think it's time to give my brain a rest.


On an unrelated note, it was a very emotional and crappy week and I'm sad my weekend is over.

I'm trying to get rid of most of my Tenimyu related goods as I'm slowly paying less attention to the fandom and I feel my stuff deserves a better home.
I'm selling photosets, photobooks, Idol DVDs, and a magazine. The listed prices are just general prices, it's more important to me that I get rid of this stuff so it's not laying around anymore.

Photosets: Aoyagi Ruito, Kanesaki Kentarou, KENN, Katou Ryousuke, Wada Masato, TAKUYA, Kamakari Kenta, Shiozawa Hidemasa, Seto Kouji, Baba Tooru, Yagami Ren

Photobooks: Kamakari Kenta
Magazine: Arena 37 Special Vol. 38 #11 featuring the Pure Boys
DVDs: KENN, Kamakari Kenta

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&hearts&hearts&hearts&hearts&hearts&hearts&hearts&hearts&hearts

I just did my taxes and I am going to be a very happy person in a couple weeks.

Watched Moon Child last night. Hadn't seen it in a very long time, and am now falling in love with Hyde. Couldn't have anything to do with all the L'arc I dumped onto my iPod the other day. >.>

Anyway, I think I'm going to play some more Persona 4, then run to the gym for a work out.

The week is almost over...

Ever know someone really old and crotchety that at one point you find yourself wishing they would just hurry up and die?

There's a woman at my work like that. My email box this morning informed me that she died this weekend.

I have a bottle of prozac in my purse.

I couldn't help it. I've been wanting a new iPod since before my replacement plan expired in September, but I couldn't justify breaking it to try and get a new one back then.
Today I sucked it up and bought a new nano, and am currently dumping music onto it.
Going from 4 gigs to 16 gigs makes me a very happy Jessica.

In other news, Persona 4 has eaten my soul and I &hearts it dearly.